Like a lily among thorns

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 02:11:05 GMT

I didn't realize that 2lb weights and a South African kickboxer instructor would cause so much pain.

I'm a masochist. I wanna do it again! My arms are swole.

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 03:08:17 GMT

I am such a lucky person.

Yeah.. I've been through hell. But truly, I'm a lucky person.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBJyTMjJIiQ

I think this song can sum it up.

I have a wonderful and supporting family. I have the most fantastic friends. I'm truly blessed to have found someone so wonderful to share my life with. And I have four great cats. Who could ask for more? :)

I'm hoping this job will be as great as I think it might be. However, with so much else being perfect in my life right now, I'm not going to hold my breath for perfection in everything. Life has trained me not to get so comfortable in things like that because when I do, that's when someone dies, or something tragic happens.

So, here's to taking things one day at a time. Here's to always looking for the silver lining in my day no matter how dark it may be. Because time and time again, even when I haven't had all of the answers, the people I hold closest to my heart are the ones who keep me going. So, I'm going to take a moment to take a deep breath and just enjoy.

Thanks for all of the support. Thanks for understanding when I haven't wanted to speak, not asking questions when I just wanted to cry on the phone, understanding my outrage and anger and understanding my depression. Thanks for just being there. Just knowing you were there if I needed you was a great comfort. I hope that I do a good enough job in reciprocating that for you guys.

Sat, 02 May 2009 05:16:52 GMT

Congratulations, Dr. Alexander Carver!

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 01:45:59 GMT

This is wrong on umteen different levels. Yes, I was a creative kid. I also liked math and science, always did my homework, and had very few friends. I was picked mostly last in sports--not because I was bad at them, but because I was unpopular. I was actually on the basketball team, played league softball, took piano, was on student council, was in choir and was in gymnastics. I was the teacher's pet and was hated for it. People wanted to copy my homework and I refused to let them.

Was I well adjusted? Hell no. It probably had a huge influence on my personality today. I am nice to everyone and always offer a smile. I'm not a very outgoing person, but if I see someone in the corner not talking to anyone, I will engage that person in conversation somehow. However, I still detest being the center of attention.

Would I have wanted to be the popular kid? No. I'm glad I was maladjusted and picked on relentlessly. I hated it at the time, but it did make me grow a back bone and it is the reason I exude self-confidence today. I really don't give a damn what anyone thinks. And years later, I have the confidence to tell them to go fuck off if they can't play nicely.

You Were a Creative Kid

When you were a kid, you always had to be doing something with your hands.

Whether you were painting a picture or just doodling, you had to be creating something.

You were too busy thinking about your future creations to listen in school.

It's likely that every part of school was a challenge for you, except for art class.

What Kind of Kid Were You?

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 20:18:01 GMT

What type of Fae are you?

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 14:05:51 GMT

I get these in my email for the entertainment value, but sometimes they hit home all too well.

Your horoscope for November 20, 2008
You may feel like a skipping record, Jennifer. You have been scratched and mistreated, and now you continue to repeat the same thing over and over again until you have driven your point home. This is not your doing, so don't be concerned if you hear protests that you are driving others off the edge. This may be the very thing necessary for all of you to advance to the next step.

Well yes... let's advance to the next step shall we?

I'm not ignoring you guys. I swear. I'm sorry if you've felt out of the loop but I've wanted to figure things out for myself. I feel that this is the best decision for me. Please give your support to David. We're trying to sort through this in a friendly way. We're also trying to not let this affect our other relationships. I'm sure that I'll soon be willing to talk to everyone. Don't give up on me just yet.

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 17:47:58 GMT

Life as a graphic artist isn't complete until you see a logo you made on a vehicle. (The white thing in the left corner)

If you remember the green M&M lady, then you'll know that this logo is actually the Bentley logo with a P instead of a B in the middle. The fact that they actually use that amazes me.

Hee hee hee

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 18:15:07 GMT

David has been waxed, threaded, trimmed, and cut. He passes my inspection for not ruining wedding pictures. :) And, he didn't even mind the torture! You should see his eyebrows! *drools*

I will miss the way your face lights up when you laugh

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 03:44:21 GMT

I've just been reminded of memories I had forgotten and people who were in them who have moved away. I've been reminded of all of the wonderful people I've met in life who've left tiny fingerprints and smudges on my heart. I wouldn't be who I am today without those who have made me think of the world in different ways and see all of the many facets it has to offer.

So, for that: Thank you.

And I know that it's never a true good bye. It still doesn't change the fact that it hurts. It also doesn't change the fact that, try as I might, I do still take my wonderful friends for granted in ways that I don't even realize until the comfort of them being near me is no more.

But then, I have the fingerprints and the smudges to remind me--always as a piece of my heart to carry me through life.